Erin. ([info]yesternight) wrote,
@ 2008-12-01 10:10:00
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Current location:hell
Current music:Thom York - Harrowdown Hill

First you jump off the cliff and you build wings on the way down.
I've been trying optimism this past week. As a sagittarius I'm suppose to be the most optimistic person around but with my scorpio rising I guess it cancels that out ( LET ME STOP NERDING OUT.) but I figured I might as well try it out. Be optimistic and good things will happen? Put great things out into the universe. No harm in that.

This week: Got in a wreck with a drunk driver. She was going about 60 to 65 mph, hit us on the left side as we were turning...from behind. She was trying to pass us up. The girl was so drunk that she tried to drive off several times, including when the police officer walked up to get her information. Jessica, the driver, hurt her back and I hurt mine. Now that I think about this we were pretty lucky because if she was driving a real car instead of that Miata we'd more than likely be dead or in the hospital. Jessica has full coverage ( GET IT! ) and so did the other girl so I am just chilling.

Got my bike stolen. It was stolen from in front of my yard locked up. I usually carry it up the flight of stairs to put in my living room but I was lazy that night. I came downstairs and my baby was just GONE. I was pretty upset about it for 5 minutes but I realized that they wanted my bike enough so they have it now. If you want something bad enough you just go for it. Maybe I could learn something from the cats that stole my only source of transportation.

Got stood up in the worst way by some dude I was digging. He has been my friend for almost two years so I am shocked. I can't entirely go into that because I have decided that there is some sick ass Mayan curse on me when it comes to the the opposite sex. I mean..this is starting to get way the fuck out of hand. Yeah, I'm mad I guess, but its actually kind of funny how it does happen that way. I'm a nice girl, I like to look and smell nice, I'm smart, hilarious, etc. A lot of people can't handle all of that.  I really think my mom is telling me up from Sephora "No, girl. This is NOT for you. Do you!" I really have to learn to accept this fact.

I think what bothers me the most is that dudes like to treat me like I'm not a lady when I know for a fact I am a lady who gives off the vibe that I am one. Does a bad bitch need to start carrying around a hat box? Wear gloves all the time? Will that get the point across? The funny thing in all of this is that I lose interest really fast when it comes to boys. I think its more of an ego crush when someone doesn't come through with plans they had with me or decides to stop talking to me because they learned Hannah that works at the Chimes gives up the cookie after an order of curly fries and a taco from Jack in the Box. (Yeah. I'm calling out names now. I'll save that story for a filtered ) I started to really learn to love myself this year and I guess it came as a shock to me that people still treat me this way. Well I'll be damned. Self-love is far more rewarding I've learned. I'm 22.5, independent, and I'm about to start the life I've been wanting to live for a very long time. I can't be stopped and I'll be surprised if anyone can gallop along side of me.

Now that I look back on some things I think I was just dodging bullets. Yeah, some situations I have been in are kind of wild but I think in the end it will all make sense.

2009 will be amazing though. See? I'm trying.


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[info]misoconfused
2008-12-01 04:48 pm UTC (link)
Eugh, bike thieves suck.

Stop nerding out.

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[info]yesternight
2008-12-01 04:50 pm UTC (link)
I think I roleplayed in Rhy'Din chats on aol too long to stop now.

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[info]skywardprodigal
2008-12-01 05:01 pm UTC (link)
because they learned Hannah that works at the Chimes gives up the cookie after an order of curly fries and a taco from Jack in the Box.

Hahahahahah

I gave up my hatboxes when I moved. I'll be replacing them. I am, though, a firm believer in gloves.

I think you're right about dodging bullets. Glad you survived the car accident.

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[info]yesternight
2008-12-02 01:26 am UTC (link)
Thanks a lot.

I think I am going to get a pair of gloves. Driving gloves.

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[info]eight_bits
2008-12-01 06:18 pm UTC (link)
Once again, you write things that could have come from my own mouth.

I actually talked about this with Peyton last night. He said he thinks girls like you and I, who are smart and awesome and entitled (in the good way) and don't put up with bullshit and mediocrity just because so many people around us do, generally intimidate the shit out of people, and our self-love vibe makes people want to take us down a peg/ "bring us down to their level" or whatever. It's an attitude we encounter both from triflin' ass dudes and equally triflin' females (lots of dudes don't like girls who have high standards like we do, and lots of girls don't like us because of female-on-female competition/wanting to be "one of the bros"/not wanting to alienate dudes by being down with/defending us/resenting chicks who get away with having higher standards/other girl-on-girl crime shit).

As for nerding out: Capricorn is NOT an optimistic sign, and is particularly prone to misery and GBHD (Generalized Butt-Hurt Disorder). We have big egos, we don't like ever being in an undignified moment, and even though we can be blunt, we are highly sensitive people who get put in bad moods by the tiniest things. The thing is, we never show our emotions (because of the whole dignity obsession) so people don't know how sensitive we are, so when we start acting all pride-hurty they just wonder why we're being such huge pricks. This is true of me, anyway. ;)

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[info]eight_bits
2008-12-01 06:27 pm UTC (link)

Vis-a-vis bike thieves, this might cheer you up:




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[info]vitamin_love
2008-12-01 08:51 pm UTC (link)
All that shit is true of me, too. My life was flashing in front of my eyes as I was reading this (not in the scary "oh shit, I'mo die!" kind of way, though).

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[info]yesternight
2008-12-02 01:27 am UTC (link)
And once again you come correct.


LOL @ THE ICON.

"our self-love vibe makes people want to take us down a peg/ "bring us down to their level" or whatever. "

I never really thought of it this way.

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[info]grayhandshakes
2008-12-01 06:20 pm UTC (link)
bike thieves are among the lowest sort of scum. i'm so pleased to hear that you're loving yourself, putting yourself first and thriving because of it. hopefully 2009 is better than 08

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[info]yesternight
2008-12-02 01:27 am UTC (link)
I think 2009 will it alright.

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[info]hipi_chik_83
2008-12-01 06:56 pm UTC (link)
hey lady! i'm a Sagittarius too and i'll be damned if i'm not pessimistic AS HELL. so, maybe i can pick up some optimism pointers. although, being a "realist" as i like to say does have it's advantages

ps. i'm really sorry to hear about your bike. if you live near a wal mart/target they're having a really good sale (i know cause i JUST went on the hunt for one).

bad things happen to good people to turn them into great people, my nana told me that and it's always kinda stuck with me.

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[info]yesternight
2008-12-02 01:28 am UTC (link)
I'm going to go to a wal-mart soon to check it all out. Thanks!

"bad things happen to good people to turn them into great people"
i will definitely keep this in mind.

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[info]gonadsandstrife
2008-12-02 12:47 am UTC (link)
Yes, but honey...you have to remember that you're a Saq III/Ox. That's a dynamic combination, y'know?

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[info]yesternight
2008-12-02 01:23 am UTC (link)
You know. I never really thought of it like that. Care to break that one down?

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[info]gonadsandstrife
2008-12-02 02:04 am UTC (link)
First off, there are 5 sections to each sign: the 2 cusps, & then a I, II,& III. There's subtle differences within the signs as to how a person is, & when you're on the cusp (like me) you need to take into account both influences. Then you taking into account the Chinese zodiac, which in your case makes you an Ox (1985, right?). A Sag/Ox is going to be different than, say, a Sag/Horse or a Sag/Tiger.

I have a couple books on all this. For the breakdowns in the Western signs, I recommend The Secret Language Of Birthdays (which breaks it all down, has 2 pages for every day, goes into all the signs, elements, & such); often expensive, but can be found for cheap. Similar books are TSLO Relationships (which I also have) & TSLO Destiny (which I do not). for the Chinese zodiac, I recommend Suzanne White's The New Chinese Astrology, which does the pairing of East & West (but does not handle cusps, birthdays, & the like). You sort of need to cobble it together from the 2 sets.

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[info]photodocument
2008-12-09 06:55 pm UTC (link)
yeah i agree with him because i'm a virgo/tiger and i'd think about that sometimes and half the time i'm nothing like a virgo should be.

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U GOT DAT P.M.A.!!!
[info]sean_coltrane
2008-12-02 04:48 am UTC (link)
Regarding your bike: if you can find this old Jamaican movie called "Rockers," I think it might help you feel a bit better about it. I and I come to change the mood, seen?

Does a bad bitch need to start carrying around a hat box?

Sentences like THIS are why you're a great writer.

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